No matter how much we fight, I still know :
That I love him to pieces.
Can't live without him.
Would do anything to make sure that we're together forever.
I Love You, Colin. So Very Much! I never want to know what it feels like to be without you. I hope you can forgive me.
Friday, July 20, 2007
Saturday, July 7, 2007
As I sit here bored at work, I realize that a lot of people don't know the history of my relationship with Colin. It's really a fun story, so here goes:
Once upon a time, 8 years ago a friend of mine moved from my hometown to another small town close to the Alberta border. In September of that year (1999) I went to visit her. I stayed for about a week, and went to school with her there, met all her friends, etc etc. And then...there was a boy across the street. Yes, Colin lived across the street from my friend. And if anyone knew me back then, when I had a crush on someone, it was intense. Needless to say, I really really liked him.
The next day, my friend & I (and Colin's little sister) decided we were going to make drinks, and watch movies. We didn't really end up watching movies, we just drank. And drank. And drank some more. I ended up in my friend's basement talking to Colin. I won't go into details of what we talked about because I was 15, and looking back now, the stuff that was discussed was probably embarassing. Haha. Basically, he told me that he liked me. I had a "boyfriend" at the time, and had made my mind up that as soon as I got home I was going to call & break up with him. The next day, Colin had other plans. He decided because I hadn't given him an answer, he wanted to go out with someone else. He started dating a girl from the nearby town. I was upset.
After travelling back home, Colin & I stayed in contact. My friend & I, however did not. She liked him too, and was angry with me. We haven't spoken since. Colin & I talked on the phone a lot (to the point my dad took my phone away). There were times when he would call & we would "date" long distance over the phone (record was like 9 days), and then he would break up with me again. This happened about 4 times, until I decided I was done. I swore to all my friends that I hated him (I didn't), and that if I ever saw him again I would kill him. HA! Of course, I still had a mini-crush on him. I mean, a girl just doesn't get over a boy like that in an instant.
Fast forward to a few years later. Here I was, single, looking for someone to love. To the point where I had joined dating sites. So I'm browsing along and found a few dates. Horrible dates, I might add. I had lost hope, until one day...I happened to see a picture of someone who I thought looked like Colin. Or what I remembered of him. Just what I thought he'd look like now. So I clicked on it, and sure enough, he still lived in the same town. I was overcome with strange emotions...anger, happiness, and my heart was pumping like crazy. I added him to my msn so ready to yell at him, when he started talking to me and was super sweet. I was willing to be friends with him again.
About 3 days later, he calls me. At midnite. To say that he's on his way into the city because he feels like he needs to see me. Wait? WHAT! Is this the same guy I knew years ago?? Is he going to play me like a fiddle again? Well, after 2 hrs of freaking out, and midnite phone calls to friends trying to calm me down, he shows up. On my front lawn. Looking damn good. Just as I remember. And he walks up to me, and I give him a big hug...and he kisses me. Wow. I felt light-headed. But so confused. So I walk into my house and he follows me. Things were awkward as he sat on my couch with me, and kept telling me to hold his hand. I did. We had a good weekend, and I was thinking something was happening, but I didn't quite know.
He called me the day after he got home to say that he really wanted to ask me out, but didn't know if he should because it was too soon. I told him that if he was going to ask me over the phone, he had to ask me again in person when he saw me next. So he did. And I count from the day he asked me in person which was March 29th. Yes, I know it hasn't been very long, but I'm so much in love. It's amazing. I can't imagine being without him, and hopefully will never have to worry about that. I'm so glad that I found him again.
And that's my story. Pretty crazy huh?
Once upon a time, 8 years ago a friend of mine moved from my hometown to another small town close to the Alberta border. In September of that year (1999) I went to visit her. I stayed for about a week, and went to school with her there, met all her friends, etc etc. And then...there was a boy across the street. Yes, Colin lived across the street from my friend. And if anyone knew me back then, when I had a crush on someone, it was intense. Needless to say, I really really liked him.
The next day, my friend & I (and Colin's little sister) decided we were going to make drinks, and watch movies. We didn't really end up watching movies, we just drank. And drank. And drank some more. I ended up in my friend's basement talking to Colin. I won't go into details of what we talked about because I was 15, and looking back now, the stuff that was discussed was probably embarassing. Haha. Basically, he told me that he liked me. I had a "boyfriend" at the time, and had made my mind up that as soon as I got home I was going to call & break up with him. The next day, Colin had other plans. He decided because I hadn't given him an answer, he wanted to go out with someone else. He started dating a girl from the nearby town. I was upset.
After travelling back home, Colin & I stayed in contact. My friend & I, however did not. She liked him too, and was angry with me. We haven't spoken since. Colin & I talked on the phone a lot (to the point my dad took my phone away). There were times when he would call & we would "date" long distance over the phone (record was like 9 days), and then he would break up with me again. This happened about 4 times, until I decided I was done. I swore to all my friends that I hated him (I didn't), and that if I ever saw him again I would kill him. HA! Of course, I still had a mini-crush on him. I mean, a girl just doesn't get over a boy like that in an instant.
Fast forward to a few years later. Here I was, single, looking for someone to love. To the point where I had joined dating sites. So I'm browsing along and found a few dates. Horrible dates, I might add. I had lost hope, until one day...I happened to see a picture of someone who I thought looked like Colin. Or what I remembered of him. Just what I thought he'd look like now. So I clicked on it, and sure enough, he still lived in the same town. I was overcome with strange emotions...anger, happiness, and my heart was pumping like crazy. I added him to my msn so ready to yell at him, when he started talking to me and was super sweet. I was willing to be friends with him again.
About 3 days later, he calls me. At midnite. To say that he's on his way into the city because he feels like he needs to see me. Wait? WHAT! Is this the same guy I knew years ago?? Is he going to play me like a fiddle again? Well, after 2 hrs of freaking out, and midnite phone calls to friends trying to calm me down, he shows up. On my front lawn. Looking damn good. Just as I remember. And he walks up to me, and I give him a big hug...and he kisses me. Wow. I felt light-headed. But so confused. So I walk into my house and he follows me. Things were awkward as he sat on my couch with me, and kept telling me to hold his hand. I did. We had a good weekend, and I was thinking something was happening, but I didn't quite know.
He called me the day after he got home to say that he really wanted to ask me out, but didn't know if he should because it was too soon. I told him that if he was going to ask me over the phone, he had to ask me again in person when he saw me next. So he did. And I count from the day he asked me in person which was March 29th. Yes, I know it hasn't been very long, but I'm so much in love. It's amazing. I can't imagine being without him, and hopefully will never have to worry about that. I'm so glad that I found him again.
And that's my story. Pretty crazy huh?
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