I got married!

I'm married now...to the wonderful man I posted about in this blog. We got married August 22, 2009. Never thought I would be married to the boy I had a crush on when I was 15, but here I am.

Our wedding was amazing.

I love where I live.

I love my husband.

And I love that our house is finally becoming what we want it to be, with the help of renovations.

good news

Well........

I GOT MY HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's right! Colin & I picked a house to buy, so in 23 days I will be moving! I can't wait. It's a very cute house. 2 bedrooms, kitchen with oak cupboards, and laminate flooring, bathroom with jacuzzi tub, 2 car garage. I am so excited. Scared a little too. I've been in Saskatoon for quite a while now. Big change. Huge step. It's gonna be worth it though.

Gotta go pack some boxes now.

in 1 month...

Today I finally had a day off in the middle of the week. Kind of strange since my days off always fall on Sunday. It's kind of nice to be able to get some things done though. PLUS it's payday. So I treated myself to some Mr. Christie cookies & new shirts from Old Navy. Nothing real special or expensive, but I haven't had a present in a while now. But that's soon to change because in one month exactly it is...

MY BIRTHDAY!!!

That's right! I'll be Old. I know. Oh well, I get gifts, so I don't care! Ha!

The house shopping is coming along. If all goes well, I'll still be moved early November. Next week I'll know more. And I'll let you know.

All I want

is to be treated like a girlfriend.

to feel special.

and maybe a few flowers every once in a while.

Is that too much to ask?

Sometimes it seems so.

Too far away

I know, I know...it's been a while. Not that anyone ACTUALLY reads this anyways.

Things are...difficult. This last week was really hard with some discussions that were had. I'm not dealing very well with the distance of my relationship anymore. I thought I would get used to it, and it would get easier. But it's not. It's getting harder. And the end of October doesn't seem any sooner than it was about a month ago. I hate missing him. And I hate missing his family, and my family, and both our home towns. It's really hard to be stuck in the middle. I want to be one place or the other. Not in this stupid city.

But with that said, things as difficult as they are, I obviously am more in love with Colin than I've ever been with anyone. That's what makes it so hard for me to be away from him. I told his mom...that someday I'd like to marry him. And she seemed pleased. And when I told Colin that I told his mom that, he said that she already knows thats his plan. *insert girly excited squeal here* Things are good.

October please hurry.

no such thing as perfect?

About 4 months ago I thought my life was perfect. Only now am I realizing I was wrong. Things weren't perfect, they were simple.

My life now is perfectly falling into place as it should, but will a lot of blocks along the way. As much as I love the direction my life has taken, sometimes I wish it was easier. Less fights, more money, more time. Alot of the "less" and "more" applies here.

I'm not sure if there's anything I can do to achieve those. All I know is that I'm thankful for everything that has happened for me.

As long as things continue in this path (without so much difficulty), I will be a very happy girl.

no matter...

No matter how much we fight, I still know :

That I love him to pieces.
Can't live without him.
Would do anything to make sure that we're together forever.

I Love You, Colin. So Very Much! I never want to know what it feels like to be without you. I hope you can forgive me.